This past week has been full of a lot of holding my breath. I haven't been this stressed (the last few months) in a long time and it really put my body through a lot. The start of this past week was full of blood tests, CT scans and PET scans. Another 6 months had past. Being tired is an understatement, for sure. I was working all day (until 8 pm each night), having little sleep and no weekends to recover. The old self would have no problem handling those hours, but the new me was just trying to keep a smile on my face. Deep down I was just wondering how my body was going to react. My mind was going to extremes for sure.....everything was put to rest when all my tests came back NORMAL! It was such a relief.
I am still doing blood tests every 3 months and will still go for another round of tests in 6 months. Because I finished treatment less then 2 years ago, he still wants to be pro-active.
My goal over the next few weeks is to find myself again. I am settling into a new job and still have a lot to learn (not only in the job, but about myself). I am not a selfish person and my needs typically come last. I am working on changing that. I am eliminating people from my life who add drama and take energy from me. I am not interested in that anymore. I am interested in taking care of me and making sure I am happy. Happy Erin = Happy Brent!
Brent and I fly to Boston on Friday and we have so many fun things in store. We are looking at the wedding location, we are finalizing the food, meeting with our photographer, I have a dress fitting.....Ahhh, so exciting!! This will determine a lot for us. More to come after the trip, along with photos :)
