Thank you all for being there, it's good to know that this blog can help others as much as it helps me. I have a doctors appointment in a few weeks and we will be scheduling my next PET scan. It is a bit nerve racking for sure. I question how much I am doing every day and if I am pushing myself to far. Getting sick was the best and worst thing to ever happen to me....I have realized how much my mind truly plays in my health as well as surrounding myself with the best people in my life. It stinks that something has to happen for you to realize that.
I am also in need of another haircut, it's getting pretty fuzzy. I will post a picture of the new hairdo after I make my appointment.
Keep laughing...
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Anyone there?
I have no idea if anyone even reads this anymore - if you do, please let me know?!? Brent thinks I am the only person that comes on here....so if that's the case, I will just write my thoughts elsewhere :)
So, to anyone out there, the days have been long. They are much longer then I remember or maybe my body just isn't quite ready for them. I still try to take it one day at a time and each week is getting a little better then the week before. All the holiday travels caught up with me this week and was just feeling really drained. I am doing my best to recognize that and stop.
My team and training efforts are coming along well. I am impressed with how many people have stepped up to give back to a great organization. Thank you for that!
So, to anyone out there, the days have been long. They are much longer then I remember or maybe my body just isn't quite ready for them. I still try to take it one day at a time and each week is getting a little better then the week before. All the holiday travels caught up with me this week and was just feeling really drained. I am doing my best to recognize that and stop.
My team and training efforts are coming along well. I am impressed with how many people have stepped up to give back to a great organization. Thank you for that!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
New Challenge
A co-worker, Patricia, suggested joining her for a Team in Training meeting last night. I am sure a lot of you have heard of them? I had always wanted to get involved, but when I was asked this time it was deeper then that. I knew I had to go. I called Brent and without hesitation, he agreed to go as well. We sat in the meeting and just looked in awe at all the activities we could take part in - triathlons, marathons, bike rides, hikes. Most of the events are within the next few months, so we took into account what I might be able to do.
A few weeks ago, I talked about my life to do list and hiking the Grand Canyon was on my list. When Brent and I saw that on the list, we knew that's what we wanted to do!!
I don't look at the fundraising as something that anyone should feel obligated to do...I just know that when my friends or family got sick, I never knew what I could do to help. Organizations like TNT work directly with families and patients. They are a great resource AND they are helping to find a cure.
I know I was one of the "lucky" ones to have on gone through 7 months of treatment, but others are not so lucky. Brent and I are hiking either a 1 day or 4 day hike the end of May. This will be a celebration of us, of life and thanks of all those who have supported me every step of the way.
If you want to help us and TNT, feel free to check out my fundraising page:
http://pages.hikefordiscovery.org/ocie/CanyonS209/ehowarth
Thanks and Cancer SUCKS!
A few weeks ago, I talked about my life to do list and hiking the Grand Canyon was on my list. When Brent and I saw that on the list, we knew that's what we wanted to do!!
I don't look at the fundraising as something that anyone should feel obligated to do...I just know that when my friends or family got sick, I never knew what I could do to help. Organizations like TNT work directly with families and patients. They are a great resource AND they are helping to find a cure.
I know I was one of the "lucky" ones to have on gone through 7 months of treatment, but others are not so lucky. Brent and I are hiking either a 1 day or 4 day hike the end of May. This will be a celebration of us, of life and thanks of all those who have supported me every step of the way.
If you want to help us and TNT, feel free to check out my fundraising page:
http://pages.hikefordiscovery.org/ocie/CanyonS209/ehowarth
Thanks and Cancer SUCKS!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Update
Minus all the Christmas festivities, I figured it was time for a health update. So far so good, to be honest. I am taking every day as it comes. I'm trying not to worry about anything beyond the here and now. I am getting stronger each day, but still know I have a long way to go.
It hit me today....I was getting on a shuttle to go to the rental car locations. I was carrying some bags for work and realized I had to lift them a few feet off the ground in order to get them onto the shuttle. Back in my time, I was a strong girl, there wasn't much I couldn't lift. I tried to get the bag off the ground and wow was it heavy. It was probably about 35 pounds or so. I seriously didn't think I was going to make it.I was holding my breath and trying with every ounce of my being to get the bag on the shuttle. (I was getting on in the back door, not up by the driver.) A nice man stepped in to helped me, because I was obliviously struggling. When I finally sat down, my heart pounding in my chest from the "workout", I tried my best to not start crying. I just held back the tears.
When you are so independent, then getting sick and becoming dependent, it's a hard reality to swallow. What's harder is when you think you are dependent again, but yet when challenges come up (like lifting something) you realize how dependent you still are......
It hit me today....I was getting on a shuttle to go to the rental car locations. I was carrying some bags for work and realized I had to lift them a few feet off the ground in order to get them onto the shuttle. Back in my time, I was a strong girl, there wasn't much I couldn't lift. I tried to get the bag off the ground and wow was it heavy. It was probably about 35 pounds or so. I seriously didn't think I was going to make it.I was holding my breath and trying with every ounce of my being to get the bag on the shuttle. (I was getting on in the back door, not up by the driver.) A nice man stepped in to helped me, because I was obliviously struggling. When I finally sat down, my heart pounding in my chest from the "workout", I tried my best to not start crying. I just held back the tears.
When you are so independent, then getting sick and becoming dependent, it's a hard reality to swallow. What's harder is when you think you are dependent again, but yet when challenges come up (like lifting something) you realize how dependent you still are......
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Holiday Season
I am still missing a lot of pictures, but figured I would entertain you with a few I have so far. The trip back east was filled with lots of exciting times, good friends, family, traveling and lots of down time. I quickly realized that my body can't do everything I wanted it to do...so I kept it pretty easy. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to see you at all or much while I was there, next time I will be back to "normal". Enjoy part one, part two will come when I get more pictures from family :)
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